Inner Demons...

What destroys you?

The inner demons that we all create for ourselves are what destroys us. Today was one of those days. My little Conner was upset last night because I am not home very often. And of course, the mom guilt kicks in so today this was all I could think about. How can I continue to do this and still make time for my family? I have talked with the hubs and we are actually going to research an at home gym. Nothing too expensive but enough to get me through this and to continue my journey. I am not one of those people who purchases gym equipment and doesn't use it, so it surely wouldn't go to waste. It would be a great way to actually involve the boys and incorporate a little workout together! It would be a great experience for them I would think. They both see me eating healthy and they both mentioned that they would like to change some of their eating habits as well. Wouldn't that be wonderful to have the whole family involved with a much healthier lifestyle? (Hint, Hint...Hubs)

Because of these demons, it was the hardest workout to get through that I have done thus far. Every voice in my head (there are several) were telling me to quit. Telling me that I am so selfish to put myself before the kids. I feel it, I hear it and I don't like it. While working out my knee hurt so bad, my hip felt out of place and I felt completely drained. This is how I know...our minds are so powerful and will conquer your body if you let it. I am having to dig realllllly deep at this point to find some inner strength to continue this journey. Tomorrow is Friday...normally a rest day, however I will have to workout 6 days a week now. Dear Lord, please let this work so it is worth it. I wonder if the maintenance is just as hard...or a lot easier once you hit the goal. Personal Trainer friend...can you answer this for me please? :)

I haven't heard much from the contestants on this challenge? Are you all still working out? Still motivated? Where are you on the squats challenge? What day? I am praying you are all kicking some serious butt...literally!!